Obligatory Entry
Jul. 24th, 2021 09:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
takethisforexampleToday I looked back on several pieces of writing I did in middle school and high school. Everything is saved online nowadays- it's a bit of a luxury to have all this content to look back on. However, reflecting on these old assignments feels like someone squeezing my heart in their fist as hard as possible, and not in a good way. The thing I astound myself with the most is the fact that many, many pieces I wrote for school were... less than satisfactory. Even the ones I actually put effort into at the time pale in comparison to anything here, with the exception of a few essays I wrote more recently. Even then, hardly any of the creative writing I revisited is quality enough to be on this website (except maybe for the purpose of criticism).
It's funny how that works, isn't it? Dreamwidth is a place where I write for leisure, and the impression I get of myself on here hardly encompasses me as a person. For instance, one would never know that a majority of the writing I do outside of this space is pretty uninspired and horrible. That's because this entire journal, at its core, is a hyperfixation. It's a single side of a d20 die, something that works within the confusing parameters of my ADHD. Although I will say, this project has been much more permanent than my other fleeting obsessions. That's all there really is to say about that. I feel it provides a better perspective of myself to those who lay their eyes upon my page, though there is hardly one person here.
This week will be busy. If I am absent throughout it, I will be sure to write another 1000+ word entry about it afterwards. I can already envision the chaos that will entail. Yeesh.
It's funny how that works, isn't it? Dreamwidth is a place where I write for leisure, and the impression I get of myself on here hardly encompasses me as a person. For instance, one would never know that a majority of the writing I do outside of this space is pretty uninspired and horrible. That's because this entire journal, at its core, is a hyperfixation. It's a single side of a d20 die, something that works within the confusing parameters of my ADHD. Although I will say, this project has been much more permanent than my other fleeting obsessions. That's all there really is to say about that. I feel it provides a better perspective of myself to those who lay their eyes upon my page, though there is hardly one person here.
This week will be busy. If I am absent throughout it, I will be sure to write another 1000+ word entry about it afterwards. I can already envision the chaos that will entail. Yeesh.
