On The Plane
Aug. 17th, 2022 07:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
takethisforexampleBack in February I booked a plane ticket to Heathrow so I could visit Corey. Finally, after 6 months, I am on the plane with about an hour until I land in London, from which I’ll take the train to Trowbridge. In the time since I decided to go ahead with the trip, Corey and I have become a couple and explored our compatibility together in every way that two people possibly can in a long-distance relationship. Today will be the day that bubble breaks.
We have spent so many nights dreaming of the moment we first get to see each other at the station. It’s like something out of a romcom, honestly, but at this point I don’t care how sappy I am or how hard it will be to say goodbye because for once in my life I have found a person worth devoting myself to. A relationship that can still grow and thrive and establish itself without the physical aspects one might expect or require. Of course, we eventually dream of a day where things could be different, but it’s still too soon to tell. The next two weeks will be all about having fun and being in each other’s company. It’s a test run I guess.
It’s not easy to convey just how I feel about the whole thing. It’s a nice break from being mostly stuck in New Jersey for the last three years. Covid may have been good for personal growth, but I’m really at a point in my life where I need to get out and see the world. Besides, I have been working hard both at school and work and I really need a vacation. I get to spend it with the person I love and for that I feel like the luckiest person in the world. But I guess it all depends how you look at it. I’m afraid about telling people I am dating an internet man because, yeah, it’s weird and not necessarily ideal. I wouldn’t have expected myself to get into an online relationship but here we are. It’s normal to me, now. People probably feel luckier to have met their partner in real life. I know that’s what my parents think. My mom told me yesterday that it’s “how things are now” so I guess she’s just trying to get used to it. She always says her kids live lives completely different from what she can relate to, but I’m glad I’m not one for the traditional route. She married young and had kids and maybe she sold her life away but she certainly doesn’t see it that way. Most people who have kids don’t. I’m just not like that though, and for me that’s an easy pill to swallow. Or maybe I’m just young. Whatever path I go I know I’ll end up fine in the end. What’s life without a little risk taking and adventure, anyways?
The world is a changing place. This condition is proof of change. Societal change, personal change, whatever you may consider it. All I know is that a powerful emotion put me on this plane and blasted me across 3,000 miles of ocean.
We have spent so many nights dreaming of the moment we first get to see each other at the station. It’s like something out of a romcom, honestly, but at this point I don’t care how sappy I am or how hard it will be to say goodbye because for once in my life I have found a person worth devoting myself to. A relationship that can still grow and thrive and establish itself without the physical aspects one might expect or require. Of course, we eventually dream of a day where things could be different, but it’s still too soon to tell. The next two weeks will be all about having fun and being in each other’s company. It’s a test run I guess.
It’s not easy to convey just how I feel about the whole thing. It’s a nice break from being mostly stuck in New Jersey for the last three years. Covid may have been good for personal growth, but I’m really at a point in my life where I need to get out and see the world. Besides, I have been working hard both at school and work and I really need a vacation. I get to spend it with the person I love and for that I feel like the luckiest person in the world. But I guess it all depends how you look at it. I’m afraid about telling people I am dating an internet man because, yeah, it’s weird and not necessarily ideal. I wouldn’t have expected myself to get into an online relationship but here we are. It’s normal to me, now. People probably feel luckier to have met their partner in real life. I know that’s what my parents think. My mom told me yesterday that it’s “how things are now” so I guess she’s just trying to get used to it. She always says her kids live lives completely different from what she can relate to, but I’m glad I’m not one for the traditional route. She married young and had kids and maybe she sold her life away but she certainly doesn’t see it that way. Most people who have kids don’t. I’m just not like that though, and for me that’s an easy pill to swallow. Or maybe I’m just young. Whatever path I go I know I’ll end up fine in the end. What’s life without a little risk taking and adventure, anyways?
The world is a changing place. This condition is proof of change. Societal change, personal change, whatever you may consider it. All I know is that a powerful emotion put me on this plane and blasted me across 3,000 miles of ocean.
