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I am burnt out again, and in most capacities, I am bored.
What really is there to do around here? Coursework, sure. Hang out with Vic, get high, go to the convenience store purely out of boredom... and that's it. You need money to have a good time around here, at least in winter. It's brining me down. I'm definitely not on my peak game at the moment and that feeling of slipping is reminiscent of high school. I feel like I'm becoming useless to myself again, and that's the last way I want to feel.
I don't get it. Recently I've felt that I've had everything I've ever wanted in my life, shouldn't it feel spectacular? In many ways it does, but not overall. I think I am just sad or something. I'm wondering if it might have something to do with my poor eating habits recently, although as far as I can tell that is a side effect of being bummed out. This past week I've only made food for myself once a day out of obligation, and that has to catch up with me at some point. It could also just be that my workload keeps me on my toes, in which case, I need to relax. Nothing can be perfect all the time, right? But I am terrified of failure. Oh well, that's life I guess. Knowing myself, whatever it is will work itself out in time. The next entry I'll probably be just fine and dandy again.
What really is there to do around here? Coursework, sure. Hang out with Vic, get high, go to the convenience store purely out of boredom... and that's it. You need money to have a good time around here, at least in winter. It's brining me down. I'm definitely not on my peak game at the moment and that feeling of slipping is reminiscent of high school. I feel like I'm becoming useless to myself again, and that's the last way I want to feel.
I don't get it. Recently I've felt that I've had everything I've ever wanted in my life, shouldn't it feel spectacular? In many ways it does, but not overall. I think I am just sad or something. I'm wondering if it might have something to do with my poor eating habits recently, although as far as I can tell that is a side effect of being bummed out. This past week I've only made food for myself once a day out of obligation, and that has to catch up with me at some point. It could also just be that my workload keeps me on my toes, in which case, I need to relax. Nothing can be perfect all the time, right? But I am terrified of failure. Oh well, that's life I guess. Knowing myself, whatever it is will work itself out in time. The next entry I'll probably be just fine and dandy again.