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Stuff I Forgot to Talk About
Nov. 29th, 2021 01:28 pmI'm back at college. Thanksgiving was alright. I will say, I'm a thankful person in general but it's nice to have an excuse to express it. I'm really glad I got to see my family and friends this week even if they push my buttons sometimes. Frankly, I think a week is the maximum amount of time I am able to amicably exist around my mom without our relationship crumbling. By the end of the week my mom and I were getting sick of each other again which is how I've determined this. Even the smallest thing will remind me of why I don't like living with her. But yeah, I'm in college and I live alone. Who would want to go back and be nagged by their parent? Not me. We were fine for most of the week though. We watched a movie and made food together, the usual. I spent time with my Dad last week as well. He took me to the gun range and we shot his .22 rifle together along with his Glock, and even though I was nervous about maybe not being a sharpshooter like him, turns out it might be in our genes. I think going to the range might become a regular activity for us when I'm home. He also took me to the bar the other night after a friend flaked on me and we got to see his friend's band play their final performance. He always looks so genuinely happy to bring me with him. I love spending time with my dad.
Unfortunately that type of social stimulation slips away so quickly here at college. It's just so painfully lonely here, and I hate that it's the only thing I have to write about. Most of what I did have going for me here has sort of washed away as the workload has become more intense. The only two people I talk to regularly are Corey and a mutual friend of ours, and sure we do a ton of shit together but I think it's better to have a balance of real life friends and internet friends. My dilemma is that real life is slim pickens when it comes to people worth keeping close. I don't really have the opportunities to meet new people here, and when I do they disappoint me. Except for Vic of course, but he's a busy guy and I understand that. I never really thought this would be a problem when I went to college which is why it's bringing me down so hard. I had it going for me back home, too. Maybe the ball will start rolling when I join the radio station next semester.
Speaking of which, I can finally confirm to myself that radio is something I want to get into and hopefully make a career out of. It's going well for me. I've got the voice, I've got the musical knowledge, and I have more motivation than I know what to do with. I'm working hard towards it. A little while back I scrapped an entry about what kind of things I would do with a platform like that, and really it comes down to highlighting the voices of marginalized people. Other people's stories have changed how I think about things, and I want a platform to broadcast those stories to other people. I want to have meaningful discussions with other people because that's something I strive for in my life anyway. What better way than radio? Or maybe a talk show somewhere down the line. I could be like Ellen but without being an absolutely massive dick off camera.
In other news, Corey and I just finished and released an album that we have been working on since early October. That sounds like not a lot of time, but that's because we are both pretty... novice to say the least. And in my case, completely unexperienced with music production as a whole. Which is why we made it our goal to create music that sucks on purpose, just to be able to experiment without some golden standard to look up to. We ended up with 18 tracks and they are so bad we can't even get them published on Apple Music or Spotify or anything. Which I guess means that we succeeded, and God I had a great time making it. A lot of time, effort, and laughter went into creating it so even if it's a joke, it means a lot to me. I think it's important to have projects and outlets like that to fuck around and test your creativity. Corey and I had so much fun with it that we now have more projects in the work as a creative duo. Currently we are working on our Christmas EP.
That's pretty much all the stuff I forgot to talk about in November. Oh, I've also been listening to this one album on repeat lately. The Weather by Pond. I love finding albums that blow my mind the way this one does, especially albums from Australian new psych bands.
Unfortunately that type of social stimulation slips away so quickly here at college. It's just so painfully lonely here, and I hate that it's the only thing I have to write about. Most of what I did have going for me here has sort of washed away as the workload has become more intense. The only two people I talk to regularly are Corey and a mutual friend of ours, and sure we do a ton of shit together but I think it's better to have a balance of real life friends and internet friends. My dilemma is that real life is slim pickens when it comes to people worth keeping close. I don't really have the opportunities to meet new people here, and when I do they disappoint me. Except for Vic of course, but he's a busy guy and I understand that. I never really thought this would be a problem when I went to college which is why it's bringing me down so hard. I had it going for me back home, too. Maybe the ball will start rolling when I join the radio station next semester.
Speaking of which, I can finally confirm to myself that radio is something I want to get into and hopefully make a career out of. It's going well for me. I've got the voice, I've got the musical knowledge, and I have more motivation than I know what to do with. I'm working hard towards it. A little while back I scrapped an entry about what kind of things I would do with a platform like that, and really it comes down to highlighting the voices of marginalized people. Other people's stories have changed how I think about things, and I want a platform to broadcast those stories to other people. I want to have meaningful discussions with other people because that's something I strive for in my life anyway. What better way than radio? Or maybe a talk show somewhere down the line. I could be like Ellen but without being an absolutely massive dick off camera.
In other news, Corey and I just finished and released an album that we have been working on since early October. That sounds like not a lot of time, but that's because we are both pretty... novice to say the least. And in my case, completely unexperienced with music production as a whole. Which is why we made it our goal to create music that sucks on purpose, just to be able to experiment without some golden standard to look up to. We ended up with 18 tracks and they are so bad we can't even get them published on Apple Music or Spotify or anything. Which I guess means that we succeeded, and God I had a great time making it. A lot of time, effort, and laughter went into creating it so even if it's a joke, it means a lot to me. I think it's important to have projects and outlets like that to fuck around and test your creativity. Corey and I had so much fun with it that we now have more projects in the work as a creative duo. Currently we are working on our Christmas EP.
That's pretty much all the stuff I forgot to talk about in November. Oh, I've also been listening to this one album on repeat lately. The Weather by Pond. I love finding albums that blow my mind the way this one does, especially albums from Australian new psych bands.
